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FUCK FUCK FUCK - my doctor's office called.. finally... my FsH level has gone up. Fuck gone up - it fucking doubled! 32 - my fucking cunt is officially out of order! FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK! AAAAAAAAAAAUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH I want to punch someone - I want to hurt something - I want this to stop! I need to stop crying but I can't - it just hurts too much! It's not fair! WHY ME??? Why is it easy for a fucking 16 year old to get knocked up? WHY? Someone fucking explain this to me - make me understand why some crack whore can have 20 kids that she couldn't give a rats ass about but my husband and I can't have 1 - someone fucking explain this to me now! I want to understand this. I want G-d to come down from high and fucking sit down and explain the big plan here - cause I just don't fucking get it! WHY IS THIS HAPPENING??? Someone make this pain stop... please.